i've been reading up on this like crazy all week long. i'm sort of at the point of not talking about it anymore. but i hope polanski gets his ass over to the US and takes FULL accountability for what he did.
numerous "hollywood" liberals have been petitioning for polanski to not be prosecuted for the rape he committed over 30 years ago. whoopi goldburg came to his defense, saying that we don't know all the deets and it's happened SO LONG AGO, so what, who cares, that's Whoopi for ya. natalie portman, david lynch, woody allen (no surprise), pedro almodavar (who i fucking LOVE) and even the head of a fucking feminist organization thinks we shouldn't prosecute polanski for this.
but the back of my mind can't stop thinking of the fact that he DRUGGED and RAPED a 13 year old girl. sources say the victim has "forgiven" him and chose not to prosecute him. honestly i don't know if we can fully believe her. only because the LA Times release an article today about how polanski tried to pay her and her family off with the cheddar back in 1993. why in the HELL would he try to do that if he was INNOCENT. Hmmm....maybe it's because....
HE RAPED AND DRUGGED A 13 YR OLD GIRL!!!! WTF!?!?!?!?
all polanski had to do, back in the 70's, was to turn himself in to the LAPD. honestly because of his class and white status, he would have not done as much time as he thought he would have. i'm sure he would have gone to jail, but would have been released early for good behavior, or pay a crazy ass fine. instead, the asshole left the country and never looked back. instead in 2002, when the academy gave him an honorable oscar for rape, no, it was for his movies.
yes he only did it one time. yes we can be spending our tax money on other things that are more "important". the victim is older now and what satisfaction would she get out of this now?! (people actually think that?!?) but i can write more and more on how this asshole is slime....or i can pass the mic to chris rock.
chris rock rocked my world last night. he was on the jay leno show and dumb ass leno (sorry, but i don't find leno's homophobic, racist ass funny) briefly mentioned polanski. chris rock's reaction is PRICELESS and WAAAAAY long overdue. i'm glad someone in fucked up hollywood has some god damn sense.
Friday, October 2, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
FB + my mom = it's complicated
last year one of my siblings decided to make a facebook profile for my mom. automatically i asked her to be my facebook friend because i thought it wasn't a big deal for me. she's not on it too often and at first reading her status were cute. unfortunately she would post about my sister mary all of the time. she talked about how much she loves mary and how she worried for mary's health. it started to get to me every single time her status was about mary. one of the few reasons why i can't visit my mom, along with having any relationship with her is because she mentions mary all of the time.
you're probably wondering why i don't like mary. unfortunately one of my older brothers sexually abused 3 of my sisters. unfortunately out of the 3 sisters, mary decided to keep the cycle of sexual abuse alive and she got to me from the age of 5 to 7. growing up with her was no picnic either. my parents always would ALWAYS excuse mary's behavior because of her disability. she was an able person and held jobs when we were growing up. to put it bluntly, she was in the "slow" classes all the way through high school. unfortunately when i started to come to terms with my trama, mary was diagnosed with MS, along with having a mental breakdown. she started to have seizures and was in/out of the hospital throughout the Fall of 1999. this is the reason why i don't want to hear about mary's health or how much both of my parents love mary. i don't hate mary, but i woud like to think that she and my "family" would get why i don't want any relationship with her.
getting caught up with my emotions, i deleted my mom from facebook. i didn't even give her an excuse why, i clicked the X and a second later, she wasn't my facebook friend. this gave satisfaction for about a minute, until my other distant sister in san diego started to write about mary's health on her FB status. i would think since she was one of the 3 that got abused by my brother, she would UNDERSTAND where i'm coming from. but no dice! right when i was this close to deleted my sister in san diego off of facebook, i realized you can block any FB friend's status you don't wanna see. if i would have known this was an option with my mom's status, this is what i would have done.
now i get to read my mom's wall posting on all of my siblings face book profiles. perhaps this is a good thing though. i'm not close to my mom at all and honestly i feel more like a burden to her and my dad. i have realized now that facebook is the ONLY channel i can have with my mom and unfortunately i cannot add her again because "FB" doesn't allow me too. i can't even look at her profile because who ever upkeeps her account, has her privacy setting on high or something. i can't even click her because FB tells me that i'm not allowed to do that. BLUG. :*( i tried to ask her about adding her again this past saturday and she told me that she would...but nothing has happened yet.
i hate how this stuff gets to me too. it took me a LONG time to realize that family is what you make of it. it's hard to practice what you preach though. especially when you run into a distant cousin that you haven't seen in over 15 years and the FIRST thing they say to you is "oh my god. you look EXACTLY like irene. d'oh.
you're probably wondering why i don't like mary. unfortunately one of my older brothers sexually abused 3 of my sisters. unfortunately out of the 3 sisters, mary decided to keep the cycle of sexual abuse alive and she got to me from the age of 5 to 7. growing up with her was no picnic either. my parents always would ALWAYS excuse mary's behavior because of her disability. she was an able person and held jobs when we were growing up. to put it bluntly, she was in the "slow" classes all the way through high school. unfortunately when i started to come to terms with my trama, mary was diagnosed with MS, along with having a mental breakdown. she started to have seizures and was in/out of the hospital throughout the Fall of 1999. this is the reason why i don't want to hear about mary's health or how much both of my parents love mary. i don't hate mary, but i woud like to think that she and my "family" would get why i don't want any relationship with her.
getting caught up with my emotions, i deleted my mom from facebook. i didn't even give her an excuse why, i clicked the X and a second later, she wasn't my facebook friend. this gave satisfaction for about a minute, until my other distant sister in san diego started to write about mary's health on her FB status. i would think since she was one of the 3 that got abused by my brother, she would UNDERSTAND where i'm coming from. but no dice! right when i was this close to deleted my sister in san diego off of facebook, i realized you can block any FB friend's status you don't wanna see. if i would have known this was an option with my mom's status, this is what i would have done.
now i get to read my mom's wall posting on all of my siblings face book profiles. perhaps this is a good thing though. i'm not close to my mom at all and honestly i feel more like a burden to her and my dad. i have realized now that facebook is the ONLY channel i can have with my mom and unfortunately i cannot add her again because "FB" doesn't allow me too. i can't even look at her profile because who ever upkeeps her account, has her privacy setting on high or something. i can't even click her because FB tells me that i'm not allowed to do that. BLUG. :*( i tried to ask her about adding her again this past saturday and she told me that she would...but nothing has happened yet.
i hate how this stuff gets to me too. it took me a LONG time to realize that family is what you make of it. it's hard to practice what you preach though. especially when you run into a distant cousin that you haven't seen in over 15 years and the FIRST thing they say to you is "oh my god. you look EXACTLY like irene. d'oh.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
it's already july?!?
WTF?!?!? this summer is flying by too darn quickly. since it's been a while since i've written anything on here...i'm just going to ramble off for real. :-)
i can't believe michael jackson passed away less than two weeks ago. his memorial service at staple center, his casket glowing in the front of the stage. watching mariah carey sing "i'll be there" made me a wee bit teary. she pulled it together, even though her emotions were weighing in on her. who could blame her though? she was singing at MJ's funeral!?!? but watching stevie wonder's performance was unforgettable. you HAVE to watch this.
http://tinyurl.com/kwxafk
maya angelou's poem read by queen latifah was the SHIT! queen latifah kept it real, but she also kept it classy. she was great!!! please check out her speech.
http://tinyurl.com/l4x2br
these particular parts of MJ's memorial really struck a cord with me. overall, the service was sweet. even though i wanted to punch the wall every time joe jackson was called a great father, i was trying only focused on the positive. i was also fortunate to watch it while working, but i really wanted to watch it at home. thank the universe for youtube.com.
it's been GREAT not having to go to school this semester. :-) i know i must take english 103 over this coming fall at LACC. i got to get the F off my transcript. a part of me would like to take another course, but i've also been doing much self reflection. i lost myself this past semester, working full time and going to class 3 times a week. i don't even want to feel that crazy ever again. if this means i only take one course this fall, so be it. i rather have my sanity than lose myself over the bullshit of college. i know i want to get my AA degree in liberal arts, and i will get that in time. but i also want to enjoy my years living in los angeles ,without college consuming my soul. i know that line came off dramatic.....as fiona apple says "oh well..."
r.r.r.
i can't believe michael jackson passed away less than two weeks ago. his memorial service at staple center, his casket glowing in the front of the stage. watching mariah carey sing "i'll be there" made me a wee bit teary. she pulled it together, even though her emotions were weighing in on her. who could blame her though? she was singing at MJ's funeral!?!? but watching stevie wonder's performance was unforgettable. you HAVE to watch this.
http://tinyurl.com/kwxafk
maya angelou's poem read by queen latifah was the SHIT! queen latifah kept it real, but she also kept it classy. she was great!!! please check out her speech.
http://tinyurl.com/l4x2br
these particular parts of MJ's memorial really struck a cord with me. overall, the service was sweet. even though i wanted to punch the wall every time joe jackson was called a great father, i was trying only focused on the positive. i was also fortunate to watch it while working, but i really wanted to watch it at home. thank the universe for youtube.com.
it's been GREAT not having to go to school this semester. :-) i know i must take english 103 over this coming fall at LACC. i got to get the F off my transcript. a part of me would like to take another course, but i've also been doing much self reflection. i lost myself this past semester, working full time and going to class 3 times a week. i don't even want to feel that crazy ever again. if this means i only take one course this fall, so be it. i rather have my sanity than lose myself over the bullshit of college. i know i want to get my AA degree in liberal arts, and i will get that in time. but i also want to enjoy my years living in los angeles ,without college consuming my soul. i know that line came off dramatic.....as fiona apple says "oh well..."
r.r.r.
Friday, June 26, 2009
it's been a long time
since i've written on here. but i will be updating random thoughts starting next week. i wasn't writing because i got completely overwhelmed with my spring classes at @LACC.
summer is here and it's time to WRITE! ;) word up. TTYL yo.
summer is here and it's time to WRITE! ;) word up. TTYL yo.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
50 cents
this sing has been in my head all week. dios malos is a great band from hawthorn, CA. this song is called 50 cents and it kicks ass. i am on spring break this week and will write more shortly. but until then...
Slowly my guitar goes out of tune
Wishing all these songs would somehow dance around the room
Put me in your wallet like an old two dollar bill
Fifty cents a lesson and I'll teach you how to thrill
You and I know
That you don't understand a thing I say
So, I won't go away..no
You don't understand a thing I say
So, I lie
Growing old is always hard to do
Empathize and realize it's happening to you
It's one more day
Then one more month
Then one more year until
Your body goes
Your mind
And then your wife's left with the bill
You and I know
That you don't understand a thing I say
So, I won't go away..no
You don't understand a thing I say
So, I lie
Slowly my guitar goes out of tune
Wishing all the songs would somehow dance around the moon
Put me in your wallet like and old two dollar bill
Fifty cents a lesson and I'll teach you how to thrill
Slowly my guitar goes out of tune
Wishing all these songs would somehow dance around the room
Put me in your wallet like an old two dollar bill
Fifty cents a lesson and I'll teach you how to thrill
You and I know
That you don't understand a thing I say
So, I won't go away..no
You don't understand a thing I say
So, I lie
Growing old is always hard to do
Empathize and realize it's happening to you
It's one more day
Then one more month
Then one more year until
Your body goes
Your mind
And then your wife's left with the bill
You and I know
That you don't understand a thing I say
So, I won't go away..no
You don't understand a thing I say
So, I lie
Slowly my guitar goes out of tune
Wishing all the songs would somehow dance around the moon
Put me in your wallet like and old two dollar bill
Fifty cents a lesson and I'll teach you how to thrill
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