WTF Dallas?

i heart most of the queer porn that pink and white productions make. i thought the crash pad was off the hook, with queer identified folks, tatts, hot chemistry and good representation of queer folks of color. even though it reminds me of the elitist bay area scene, but i was amazed how much i dug it. i've been waiting MONTHS for their new movie Champion to be released. i've been checking blowfish.com web site to see when i can pre-order it. i've been dying for some queer/dyke porn without the long nails, femme on femme stuff. not trying to knock that though. i've seen it and it's ok...but i get a bigger kick of seeing queer folks of colors getting it on. it's a personal preference. :)

i am on myspace the other day and i see that pink and white have made a separate web site for champion. i click it, getting totally stoked because i've been waiting for this for SO LONG. i get to the site and i realize...that one of the characters is someone i fucking can't STAND!

the Dallas character is this girl i use to know back in the day, like 2001 status. Dallas use to be with one of my friends. i've done shrooms with dallas, i've gotten drunk and high at her place and she always use to get on my last nerve. but my friend at the time was in love, so i never got in the way because i loved my friend too much. but as lesbians are...drama between Dallas and i got crazy. basically my friend and Dallas we're fighting a lot and my friend was telling me that they might break up. unfortunately I used that moment to tell my friend how much Dallas sucks ASS and how she should give her the boot and move on. i saw how both were miserable and I knew my friend and Dallas would be happier if they weren't together. so right after i give my two cents on their relationship, they got back together and they were stronger than ever before. because of that...my "friend" stopped returning my calls. she avoided me and my real friends in the neighborhood. even my real friends, who've met both of them and tolerated their craziness, were dissed by them and their lesbian/feminist friends. i was crushed at the time because i didn't get why she gave me the brush off, until she wrote it in an email. how fucked up is that? i left the bay area in 2005 and through friendster, (who uses that anymore?), i saw my "friends" profile and it said she was single. which still makes me laugh now because it was so fucking stupid. i don't keep in touch with either of those girls at all.

now that "Dallas" is one of the big stars of champion...i can't fucking see this bitch have sex. i can't even think about it. which really pisses me the fuck off. don't mean to be cussing and annoying...but i was really looking forward to it. i have a boundary when it comes to my friends and porn. if they're in a movie, i cannot and will not get off to them at all. i respect that they made an awesome movie and support them 110%, but i will not go to the premiere and put myself through that. i know others don't have this boundary and tip my hat off to you. but that is not the way i am at all.

i can't watch champion because of Dallas. the thought of it really grosses me out. dammit it all to hell. :(